Chapter One
The black horse was first to know.
It came to him across the frost of the open field, the smell
of unfamiliar men. The horse nudged the air and the sinews
of his neck ridged like steel cables. He snorted almost without
sound and twin vapors of breath hung for a moment like ghosts
in the sharp air. A tremor rippled down the muscles of his
flanks. He took a half-step backward before the gray-clad
rider dug his knees into the horse's side and rubbed the long
smooth neck with a gloved hand.
The horseman was a powerfully built
stump of a man. Though a superb rider, he seemed to sit precariously
on the black horse, riding high in the saddle with its stirrups
made short for his runty legs. There was nothing of the dandy
in Captain Finley Tibbetts. He was simply dressed in light
gray britches and tunic, the twin bars of his rank embossed
in gold on his shoulders, a brief curt of yellow braid at
the cuffs of his sleeves. The plain leather cavalryman's boots
came almost to his knees, and he wore a dark gray campaign
hat cocked low over his intense bushy eyebrows. The only adornment
to his uniform was the great curving saber at his side. It
was encased in a plain, issue scabbard, but the blade itself
was a marvel of silver radiance, intricately engraved with
scrollwork and the name of its maker, E. Duddingham of London.
In the hands of Captain Finley Tibbetts, it was an instrument
of judgment.
He sat cockily in the saddle, reining
in the nervous movement of the horse, head turning this way
and that as he listened for a wayward noise from the copse
of sycamores across the field. The shredding stump of a cigar
was clamped in one comer of his mouth, an exclamation point
to his sumptuous, curving-black moustache. To his left, and
half a horse-length to the rear, sat his adjutant, the huge
red-faced Irishman Muldoon, whose saber stroke could decapitate
a man in the flick of a wrist. Muldoon was utterly dedicated,
awesomely fearless. Once, in an attack on a Federal position
atop a small rise, when Captain Finley had been de-horsed
by a ball in his side, Muldoon had leaped from his own mount,
grabbed up the fallen captain, and carried him pickaback the
rest of the way up the hill with Captain Finley cursing and
waving his saber. At the summit, when Muldoon had dumped him
atop a pile of bluecoated bodies in the midst of the conquered
Federal position, Captain Finley had doffed the battered gray
campaign hat and said, "Lieutenant Muldoon, you make an admirable
steed!" and fainted. To Captain Finley's right was the boy
they called Young Scout, mounted on his own chestnut, thin
shoulders hunched against the cold of dawn.
And to their rear, deep in the pine
thicket, hidden in the half-light and mist, were the hundred
men of Captain Finley's Lighthorse Cavaliers handpicked
for horsemanship, keen eye, steady hand, and fearless spirit;
dispatched upon only the most critical of missions. They and
their captain reported only to General Lee.
This morning, they were the vanguard
of Lee's grand assault on McClellan's right flank. For days,
the two great armies had been poised like beasts, eyeing each
other warily, each waiting for a precious moment of vulnerability
to spring and kill. Captain Finley's mission: to lure the
Federals into a false step; to create, with the chaos and
confusion of a lightning feint, the illusion of a thrust against
the flank of McClellan's forces near Gaines Mill. When McClellan
responded with a counter-thrust, Lee would strike, snipping
off the Federal advance as if pruning a tree limb, pouring
through the breach in the bluecoat lines to divide the right
flank and roll McClellan back along a wide front. Lee might,
with speed and daring, drive the Federals clear back across
the Rappahannock, perhaps even put them to such rout that
they would leave the city of Washington, the Great jewel,
open to capture.
The Lighthorse Cavaliers were the
linchpin of the entire enterprise. Now they must discern the
enemy, mark him, draw him out. And thus they waited in their
saddles under the pines, anonymous in the gray cocoon of beginning
day. At first light there was no wind, only the dry marrow-chilling
cold that seemed to grow more bitter with dawn. The day would
be clear and blood would freeze on the ground. They waited,
disciplined and patient, for sound to confirm what the black
horse had already told them.
It came, finally. A clink of metal
perhaps the tap of saber against belt buckle or bayonet
against rifle barrel. A careless sound, made by undisciplined
troops. (The trappings of Captain Finley's own men and mounts
were wrapped with cloth to muffle noise.) The sound would
have gone unnoticed among the men in the copse of sycamores
three hundred yards across the white field, but it carried
like a shot on the brittle air to the pines where the Lighthorse
Cavaliers waited. The black horse between Captain Finley's
legs was quiet. There were no more of his kind among the sycamores
across theway; the smells were all man-smells.
Captain Finley heard the sound. He
studied the horse, and then he leaned far to his left and
whispered to Muldoon, "Infantry." He smiled, the great slash
of his moustache lifting as he showed large, even teeth yellowed
by cigar juice. Muldoon turned to stare at the captain, and
Young Scout could see the thought pass between them.
Infantry: saber against bayonet. Spread the troop and
strike in a rush along the broad blue front of the enemy.
Ride howling like demons to be among them quickly in a frenzy
of steel and pounding horse, slashing their ranks and opening
their bodies. Then wheel and roll up their flanks. Strike
until they are panicked and fleeing and then give chase to
put them to rout with the terror of whistling steel at their
backs and the conviction that an entire corps of madmen is
at their heels. That done, withdraw at a canter, stepping
around the bodies.
Thus, the trap is set. Smarting from
the wound, McClellan will strike back in force. And Lee will
be waiting.
Captain Finley leaned and spoke again,
his voice soft. "The damn fools will sound us out first. McClellan's
boys are in the mold of their master. He's like an old woman
who tests the water with her big toe before she steps in.
He wastes his artillery, probing and poking and letting every
damned soul in the country know where he is. So we'll get
a little shot and shell, Muldoon, because whoever is across
the field yonder will want to know if there's anything lurking
here in the pine thicket before they tiptoe out. But we must
hold fast and not give ourselves away. No matter what."
Muldoon nodded. "If a man bolts, I'll
shoot the bastard."
"If a man bolts, I'll shoot you, you
Irish jackal."
Muldoon grinned. "They'll hold, Captain."
And he turned and signaled with a broad wave of his arm for
the troop to disperse among the pines. They moved away from
each other, and it was their most disciplined act, for men
abhor dying alone. They were all upright in their saddles
now, sensing danger, testing the stiffness in their limbs,
shifting their sore rumps, watching Captain Finley, broad-shouldered
and erect on the black horse.
Presently, it came. The first shell
passed over their heads with a high moan and burst a hundred
yards to their rear, shredding pine trees, and the men of
the Lighthorse Cavaliers reined in hard on their mounts and
felt the cold knot of fear in their own guts. The single round
was followed by another, then another, walking like a man
with a cracking whip -- first left, then right, then slowly
forward toward Captain Finley's troop. The shells came faster
now, one every four or five seconds, one explosion spawning
the next. The horses began to dance and shy in terror, and
their riders dug in their knees, still watching Captain Finley.
He gave them his back and stared out at the open field.
Muldoon and the boy held fast at Captain
Finley's side. Young Scout glanced at the adjutant and saw
the faint glint of perspiration on his broad forehead. The
noise of the shells mushroomed and the boy could feet the
concussions pushing at his back and the bile rising in his
throat. He had the sudden urge to dismount and shield himself
with the chestnut, but he fought it. He heard a piercing scream
to his rear, swallowed immediately by the roar of an explosion
as a round erupted in the midst of the troopers. Smoke and
dust were swirling about them now, so thick he could barely
see the two other riders to his front. And then Captain Finley
turned to him and shouted over the din, "Tighten your bowels,
Young Scout! The Federals are sending us a purgative!" He
laughed, throwing his head back and baring his teeth. He spoke
again, but the words were lost in the terrible noise. The
shells were upon them.
In the clear cold morning air above,
Billy Benefield listened to the roar of the finely tuned Pratt
and Whitney engine throbbing at the nose of his bi-winged
Curtiss Stearman and thought of the smooth freckled thighs
of Alsatia Renfroe.
Billy admitted to himself again, unashamedly,
that he would renounce all family honor, birthright,
pilot's wings, the chance to glory himself in battle
for one more deliciously sinful moment between Alsatia's thighs,
as he had had under the banana tree by the courthouse with
summer midnight breathing on his bare bottom. Why else would
he have finagled and connived for six months for the opportunity
to make his cross-country flight over the sacred spot where
Alsatia lay warm and tousled abed? Just beyond the blur of
the propeller, Billy could see the smooth freckled thighs
of Alsatia Renfroe opening, opening. He moaned. Oh, Alsatia.
Oh, rapture.
Billy flew on past the open field
and the woods beyond, then banked to the left and made a broad
sweep around the perimeter of the town, pointing his left
wing at the slate roof of the courthouse on its neat brown
square of frosted lawn. From the open cockpit of the Stearman
he could see the pecan tree at the corner of the courthouse
lawn where the pinochle players gathered, the storefronts
along the courthouse square with their awnings beetle-browed
over the sidewalks, a lighted window at the radio station
upstairs over the Farmers Mercantile Bank where Ollie Whittle
would be giving the early morning market report and the weather
forecast, another at Biscuit Brunson's cafe where the breakfast
crowd would be gathering. He could see the streets marching
off smartly at right angles, making other squares beyond the
business district, the stubby brick steeple of the Methodist
Church and the slim spire of the Baptist, squat frame and
brick houses huddling under the bare winter branches of elms
and oaks and maples.
The sun was beginning to nudge over
the horizon now and it sent pinpricks of orange and pink through
the limbs of the trees and inflamed the wings of the Stearman.
Billy breathed deeply and felt the icy air sear his lungs,
even through the wool scarf he had wrapped around his face
and over his leather flight helmet. He reached deep into his
clothing -- under the fur-lined flight jacket and the wool
shirt and three undershirts and union suit and felt
again, for reassurance, the silk handkerchief next to his
breast. Again, the hot vision of Alsatia made him flush.
He looked down and saw far below him
his own home, three blocks from the courthouse, the forbidding
brown brick with green canvas awnings over the windows and
a towering magnolia in the front yard -- the house where his
father, Mayor Rosh Benefield, would still be sleeping the
sleep of a fat man this Saturday morning in the canopied bed
next to his wife, Ideal.
The Stearman came full circle over
the town and Billy banked to the right and set the nose toward
the horizon, following Partridge Road to where the houses
began to thin out and the pavement ended. The road snaked
on past the copse of sycamores, the frost-covered field, the
pine thicket, and then past Jake Tibbetts's house with the
huge spreading oak tree in the front yard. It ended finally
just beyond Tunstall Renfroe's house, where Alsatia slept
now in the upstairs back left-corner bedroom. It was time.
Billy reached again deep into his
clothing and plucked the silk handkerchief from its warm spot
next to his breast. He removed the leather flight glove from
his right hand and placed the glove on the floor of the cockpit.
Then, holding the Stearman on course with the control stick
between his knees, the handkerchief open in the gloved palm
of his left hand, Billy unbuttoned the fly of his trousers
and opened himself to the morning. With the throb of the Pratt
and Whitney loud in his ears and the vision of Alsatia Renfroe
swimming before him, he stroked and gave birth with a bellow.
Oh, Alsatia! Oh, Rapture!
He was now several miles past Alsatia's
house. He composed himself, then turned the plane sharply
on its wing and throttled forward, bearing down on the house
like a glide bomber. The white frame siding, the galvanized
tin roof, the wisp of smoke curling out of the chimney from
Tunstall Renfroe's early morning coal fire, the Packard parked
in the side yard, grew large over the fat nose of the Stearman.
He leveled off at five hundred feet, and as he roared over
the house he dropped the handkerchief far out over the side
and pulled the nose of the plane up sharply. He banked and
saw the handkerchief fluttering toward the Renfroes' side
yard. He waggled the wings of the Stearman, then headed east,
into the sun.
In the pines, the morning was in pieces.
Young Scout gasped for breath, the air sucked from his lungs,
his head dizzied by the awful roar of the shellbursts and
the choking smell of the acrid smoke. To his right a riderless
horse bolted toward the open field at the edge of the pines,
and Captain Finley whipped out his pistol and shot the animal
dead with a single bullet to the brain. The horse dropped
soundlessly. Captain Finley holstered the pistol and grabbed
the reins of Young Scout's chestnut, pulling boy and horse
to him. "Take a message to our battery," he shouted in Young
Scout's ear. "They are yonder in enfilade." The captain pointed
back through the blasted pines where their own artillery,
five small field pieces, had been dug in beyond a low rise.
"Tell the gunners we have not revealed ourselves to the enemy.
The Federals will advance when the barrage is lifted, thinking
the woods are undefended. They are to wait until the Federals
are fifty yards from our front and then give their britches
the grapeshot. We'll strike on the heels of their thunder!"
He pushed the horse away and Young Scout wheeled and dug his
heels into the chestnut. "Ride hard, Young Scout. Godspeed!"
he heard Captain Finley shout at his back.
Horse and boy pounded through the
scattering ranks of the Lighthorse Cavaliers with shrapnel
whistling through the tops of the trees near their heads,
lopping off pine branches with a wicked snapping sound. The
ground trembled with the impact of the shells. The noise was
deafening. Young Scout gagged on the bitter stench of burning
powder. He leaned forward in the saddle and wrapped his arm
around the chestnut's neck, trusting the horse to keep a steady
course. On either side he could see the blur of horseflesh,
hear the curses of men and the agonized whine of their mounts
tatters of sound shredded by the roar of cannon shot.
Then suddenly he was out of it, bursting
into the open at the rear of the pine thicket beyond the barrage,
galloping breakneck toward the rise where the battery of field
howitzers awaited Captain Finley's orders.
A fleck of white caught his eye and
he looked to see a handkerchief floating to earth near the
farmhouse two hundred yards away. His throat caught. An enemy
signal? Federal treachery? He hauled hard on the reins and
the chestnut reared on its hind legs, pawing the air viciously.
What to do? Take the message to the artillery or warn Captain
Finley?
Lonnie! Hooooooooooo, Lonnnneeeeeeeeeee!
The clear voice of Mama Pastine trumpeting across the frozen
morning, calling him to breakfast, ended Young Scout's dilemma.
"Oh, shit," said Young Scout.
"What we need to do is let the churches
organize the wars," Jake was saying. "It would make everything
a good deal more civilized."
He speared a four-inch-thick stack
of hotcakes from the steaming platter in the middle of the
kitchen table and dropped it on his plate.
"Take the Germans in the Middle Ages.
They had the right notion. Start a war, and they'd send out
a bunch of prelates to oversee the business. They had a thing
called the Peace of God where the prelates would decide things
had got hot enough and they'd just say, 'Okay, boys, time
to knock off.' And most times, the combatants would just stop
right there and then. But that didn't always work."
Jake poured a puddle of syrup on top
of the hotcakes and slivers of brown trickled over the sides
of the pile.
"So they had another trick they called
the Truce of God. That's where the prelates would say, 'Okay,
boys, no fighting between Thursday and Monday.' And sure enough,
the aggrieved parties would cease the hostilities at sundown
on Thursday and clean up and go to town and recharge their
batteries and take in a sermon on Sunday and then go back
to it hot and heavy come sunrise on Monday. Now that's..."
Jake forked a hunk of the hotcake
pile into his mouth and chewed methodically. Twenty times.
Chew every bite twenty times and you'd never have gastric
distress, Daddy Jake always said. He rolled his eyes toward
the ceiling, impatient to get on with his story. His cheeks
puffed like a chipmunk's. Then he swallowed and the great
bony lump of his Adam's apple bobbed like a head nodding.
"...the way to run your wars." He
nodded for emphasis. "Pastine" he held up his coffee
cup and waggled it "could I have another round, my
beauty?" Mama Pastine gave the three hotcakes sizzling on
the griddle a flip and brought the coffeepot to the table.
The coffee was boiling hot and it bubbled in Jake's cup as
she poured it. "What do you think, my darlin', on the subject?
Could we get the churches to take over the supervision of
the lists?"
Pastine speared him with a warning
glance. She had small bright eyes that danced when she was
in one of her no-nonsense moods. "You blaspheme, Jake Tibbetts.
You haven't darkened the doors of a church in forty years,
and you sit there and babble on about churches running wars.
The Lord listens and takes note." She took the coffee pot
back to the stove.
Jake glanced at Lonnie and cocked
his head to the side like a small dog.
"You'd have to take turns, of course.
Spread the responsibility around. Give everybody a piece of
the business. You could have your Baptist war and your Methodist
war and your Catholic war and your Reformed Agnostics and
your High Episcopals and your Low Episcopals. And then your
Presbyterians would want a piece of the action. Get a good
thing going and your Presbyterians will always find a way
to get in on it. Then when they do, they sit around and argue
with each other."
Jake was waving his fork now, the
color high in his cheeks, his ears twitching the way they
did when he got on a tear.
"Your Baptist wars would be sort of
grim kinds of affairs. No cussing or that sort of thing. Strictly
business. The Methodists, now, they would run a loose kind
of game, if you know what I mean. Bingo at night, covered-dish
suppers, dancing, the like. It would give the hors-de-combat
a little spice."
Jake chopped off another bite of hotcakes
and chewed twenty times, drumming his fingers on the table
while he rolled his eyes. The Adam's apple bobbed.
"It would give a fellow a choice of
wars, too. Take for instance you had a Baptist war coming
up. A fellow who enjoyed a little fun along with his combat
might say, 'Well, now, I think I'll just sit this one out
and wait until a good Reformed Agnostic war comes along.'"
"For goodness' sake, Jake!" Pastine
turned from the stove and brandished the spatula she was using
to flip the hotcakes. "Hush and let the boy eat his breakfast.
And you," she pointed the spatula at Lonnie, "get busy. I'd
think you'd be starved half to death, running around in the
woods before daybreak on a freezing morning, doing Lord knows
what. And then you sit here with your mouth open listening
to that old goat" she waved the spatula at Jake again
"blaspheming and talking nonsense while a good pile
of hotcakes gets cold right before your nose. What were you
doing out in the woods, anyway?"
Lonnie ignored the question. He held
up his coffee cup and waggled it. "Could I have another round,
my beauty?" he mimicked Jake's raspy voice. Jake guffawed,
then ducked his head. Pastine hung fire for a moment, then
put the spatula down with a snort and poured a small puddle
of coffee in the bottom of Lonnie's cup, filled it the rest
of the way with milk until it lapped at the brim, and dumped
in a heaping teaspoon of sugar.
The kitchen was a warm cocoon against
the morning. The Atwater-Kent radio murmured Ollie Whittle's
market and weather reports from its mahogany cabinet on the
counter next to the pantry. At the window beyond Pastine's
head the thin edge of frost around the panes glittered with
new sun, and the way it fractured the light made her face
seem more angular than usual. With the glistening window at
her back she seemed to hover somewhere between the table and
the frostbitten morning where Captain Finley Tibbetts, Lonnie's
great-great-grandfather, would just now be carving up the
Federal infantry in the open field beyond the pine thicket
with his glistening saber. In counterpoint to the raging battle,
Mama Pastine smelled deliciously of coffee and hotcake batter
and the faint aroma of lilac water.
She gave Lonnie's coffee a vigorous
swish with the spoon, then turned back to the stove, picked
up the spatula, shoveled the three hotcakes from the griddle
onto her own plate, and placed it on the table at the empty
seat. She took a glass from the cabinet and held it under
the sink faucet. The water came out with a splat.
"Jake, get those pipes wrapped today."
"Ummmm," Jake said, his mouth full
of hotcake, as she sat down at the table.
"I mean it."
"Ummmmm."
"One of these nights, I'll be lying
upstairs on my deathbed with it freezing cold outside and
neither one of you outlaws will have sense enough to come
in here and turn on the faucet so it will drip, and then the
pipes will burst, and come morning, you'll have a worn-out
old dead woman lying upstairs and the pipes spewing all over
the backyard." Pastine poured a thin stream of syrup over
the top of her hotcake stack, then cut off a small bite.
Lonnie thought about the pipes. They
had taken out the hand pump beside the kitchen sink and put
in running water during the summer six years before, when
Lonnie was six years old. Daddy Jake should have done it right.
He should have had the plumbers rip out the old sink and put
in a new one with faucets built in and the pipes run up through
the floor. But no, he told them to just run the pipes under
the house and out through the bricks of the foundation and
up the backside of the house and into the kitchen just below
the window. Lonnie remembered Mama Pastine fussing about it,
Daddy Jake saying it was all right, he'd wrap the pipes so
that they didn't freeze. Now the pipes were still bare, and
Mama Pastine had to turn on the faucet and let it drip on
cold nights so the pipes wouldn't freeze. Lonnie imagined
the pipes busting while Mama Pastine lay on her deathbed upstairs,
rupturing just at the point where the straight pipe connected
to the elbow just below the window, spewing a fine spray of
water that glittered in the dawn and froze as it hit the nandina
bush under the window, turning the bush into a spectacular
ice monster like the kind that lurked in the High Himalayas.
Jake looked up from his plate, now
empty. "Well, Pastine, which do you want us to call first
the plumber or the mortician? Are you fading fast,
my beauty, or will you last another winter?"
"Plumber? Who said anything about
a plumber?" She pointed her fork at Jake. "You said when you
had the plumbers out here to put in the pipes that you could
wrap them yourself. If you weren't going to do it, why didn't
you have the plumbers wrap the pipes, Jake? Or better, why
didn't you have the plumbers run the pipes up through the
floor and put in a new sink like you should have?"
"I'm a newspaperman, not a laborer,"
Jake protested. "I deal in words, not monkey wrenches."
"Then why..." she began, then tossed
her head in disgust.
Jake took a sip of his coffee. "I
have good intentions, m'dear. I simply sin and fall short.
My feet are made of clay, I confess it. I'll get the pipes
wrapped today, plumber though I am not. Lonnie and I will
stop at the hardware while we're in town and pick up whatever
it is you wrap pipes with."
Mama Pastine glared at him and kept
eating. She took small bites, chewed them precisely. Lonnie
watched, studying her even, deliberate movements as she worked
through the stack of hotcakes, washing them down with small
sips of water. She was no coffee drinker. She fixed Jake's
coffee every morning, and she would allow Lonnie two cups
of mostly-milk on Saturday, because she said if they wanted
to rust away their insides, they would have to pay the consequences.
Jake drained his coffee cup, set it
down with a clatter on the saucer, wiped his mouth with the
cloth napkin in his lap, and laid it in a heap on his plate.
"I wonder who that damn fool was in the airplane?"
Lonnie's ears perked. "What airplane?"
"My Lord," Pastine said, "you must
have been asleep out there in the woods if you missed it.
He passed right over the house just before I called you in.
Almost scared me to death. Do you suppose they're having maneuvers?"
Jake shook his head. "Lost, probably,
and looking for landmarks,"
"You reckon he crashed?" Lonnie asked
eagerly.
"Well, I ain't seen any debris in
the backyard," Jake said.
Lonnie thought about it, imagined
the plane clipping the chimney with a wheel as it roared over
the house, tilting crazily, digging a wing into the big pecan
tree in the side yard, spinning and devouring itself as it
came to pieces in the limbs of the tree, scattering flaming
pieces of struts and propeller and fabric over the backyard
as the chickens ran cackling in terror, skittering along with
their feet skimming the ground.
"Godawmighty," he said softly.
Mama Pastine looked up at him sharply.
"What did you say?"
"Nothing," he mumbled.
"I heard you," she insisted, "I heard
what you said."
Lonnie cut his eyes over at Jake,
who gave him a don't-look-at-me-buster look.
"I'm sorry," Lonnie said.
"You should be. And on the day before
Christmas. Santa Claus has no truck with blasphemers."
Daddy Jake snorted. "Hogwash."
"I beg your pardon?" Mama Pastine
said.
"You are confusing Santa Claus with
Father Coughlin. Santa Claus makes no moral judgments. His
sole responsibility is to make young folks happy. Even bad
ones. Even TERRIBLE ones."
"Then why," Lonnie broke in, "does
he bring switches to some kids?"
"Exactly," Mama Pastine affirmed.
"Whose side are you on, anyway?" Jake
demanded.
"I'm just tryin' to get it all straight,"
Lonnie said. "I'm all for Santa Claus."
Jake tapped his plate with his fork.
"This business about switches is pure folklore.
Did you ever know anybody who really
got switches for Christmas? Even one?"
Lonnie thought about it. "I guess
not. Even Little Bugger, after he set fire to the woods down
by the creek, he got a Western Flyer coaster for Christmas."
"Right," Daddy Jake nodded. "I have
been on this earth for sixty-four years, and I have encountered
some of the meanest, vilest, smelliest, most undeserving creatures
the Good Lord ever allowed to creep and crawl. And not one
of them, not one, mind you, ever got switches for Christmas.
Lots of 'em were told they'd get switches. Lots of
'em laid in their beds trembling through Christmas Eve, just
knowing they'd find a stocking full of hickory branches come
morning. But you know what they all found?"
"What?"
"Goodies. Even the worst of 'em got
some kind of goodies. And for one small instant, every child
who lives and breathes is happy and good, even if he is as
mean as a snake every other instant. That's what Santa Claus
is for, anyhow."
"Jake," Mama Pastine said, "one of
these days you are going to talk yourself into a corner you
can't get out of. I just hope I live long enough to see it."
"So you can gloat?"
"No, I'll probably keel over from
amazement."
"One of these days, I'll do it just
for your edification, m'dear."
She looked at him for a long moment.
"Sometimes I wonder if you know the difference between good
and evil."
Daddy Jake grinned. "I do, but Santa
Claus doesn't."
Lonnie savored it, his grandparents'
warm kitchen and the ice-rimmed window, the drip-drip of the
faucet keeping time with Ollie Whittle's soft mutter on the
Atwater-Kent, the rich aroma of coffee and hotcakes, Mama
Pastine's lilac water and Daddy Jake's cigar smell. And secrets.
There was the secret knowledge of the Daisy Red Ryder BB gun
and the two Tom Swift mysteries and the pair of brown corduroy
pants and the soft black leather gloves with rabbit-fur lining
he had already found stashed away in Mama Pastine's closet.
And that other secret Captain Finley's Lighthorse Cavatiers
covering themselves with glory out there in the frost-encrusted
field.
The moment hung suspended in Lonnie
Tibbetts's imagination, and then it ended when Lonnie thought,
as he so often did, of his father.
Where, on this fine morning, was First
Lieutenant Henry Finley Tibbetts, U.S. Army Infantry? Somewhere
in Europe, that's all Lonnie knew. Mama Pastine told him that
a nugget of knowledge gleaned from some mysterious
source she had. She shared only that with Lonnie, and only
with him, because Daddy Jake would not allow the mention of
his son in his presence.
This morning, the thought of Henry
Tibbetts bubbled unbidden to the surface of Lonnie's mind
an impression, a feel of Henry more than any
specific memory. Lonnie, in fact, could not really remember
what his father looked like. He remembered, instead, Daddy
Jake's reaction to Henry, the naked anger, the disgust. Henry
Tibbetts was a pariah in his own home. It was the very word
Jake had used to describe his son a pariah. A man who
had disgraced the memory of his wife and deserted his son
and was now off fighting a damn fool's war. He was a drunkard,
a profligate, a fool. But worst of all, he had violated the
basic rule of civilized behavior that says a man cleaves first
to his family and forsakes all else in their behalf, no matter
what the cost. In Jake's book, you stood and fought, especially
when the enemy was inside yourself. But Henry had cut and
run. A quitter. That's what Daddy Jake had said.
Lonnie understood all these things,
understood that Henry was absolutely taboo in Daddy Jake's
house. But nonetheless he lurked in every comer, a sad, fascinating
shadow of a figure just beyond touching. Lonnie felt his presence,
but he kept that to himself. As far as Mama Pastine was concerned,
Henry was somewhere in Europe. How could you tell her that
he was both there and here, that a living man could have a
ghost who haunted the house and the person he had left behind?
No, you couldn't tell. It was something you kept in your own
heart even though it sometimes made you feverish with wondering.
"You gonna stare at it or drink it?"
Daddy Jake interrupted his thoughts.
"Huh?" He looked up and blinked at
them.
Jake laughed. "Where do you go when
you wander off like that, boy?"
Lonnie flushed. "I was just thinking,"
he mumbled.
"Well, finish up. We got things to
see and folks to do."
"And pipes to wrap," Mama Pastine
said.
Lonnie picked up his coffee cup and
took a final gulp. On the radio, Ollie Whittle was talking
about a little town in Belgium. Bastogne, he called it.
Copyright © 1987 by Robert Inman